With that being said, I expected a close result on November 8th. All I could do was do my part and vote. I will admit that she was not my first choice. Certainly, she is flawed and has been criticized numerous times for being prone to venality and ingenuity, but what politician isn't? Ok, fine, Sanders isn't. I voted for him in the primary, but America clearly wasn't ready for our revolution yet. It is unfortunate, but the election goes on. He endorsed her; I followed his lead. I wish more people could have done that. I've seen criticism from some of Sanders' supporters that voting her Hillary is comparable to a moral transgression. That is absurd.. voting for your conscience should be voting for the candidate that stands the greatest chance at defeating a xenophobic, misogynistic, racist, bigoted, and petulant fearmongerer. I voted to be a voice for those who don't have a voice; I voted for those most vulnerable: LGBTQ, Muslims, women, immigrants, and people of color. I voted for the best chance at moving our country forward, not backwards. 

I stayed up until about 2am that night. I had a statistics exam in the morning and two presentations that I had not yet rehearsed. I wish I could've slept well, but the electoral count scared me to pieces. I prayed that night for a miracle to happen. Hey, that's what you do when you're feeling forlorn, right? 

I woke up around 7am. And damn.. I glanced around everywhere in a state of incredulity. The sky that day was dark, almost portentous. I got home around 10pm that night and finally had a chance to process it all. I cried for a while. I've never felt so impassioned about politics before. I wish it could be different, thinking about it still gets me a doleful. Although I am crestfallen, I have some slight hope that this will bring about real change in the democratic party. Sure, the Republicans won, but this is a pyrrhic victory.

In the wake of the results, the prospects of being a scientist are not so great. Here we have the soon-to-be leader of a world power who denies climate change. To put it even more frankly and in an unambiguous way, the guy does not believe in science. As I'm filling out my doctoral applications, I shudder in fear. Should I continue to pursue this career path? Will I get funding? Is it a dead end?

I don't know. This year has started off alright, but it is coming to an unpleasant close.
I am SO tired, the semester has been rough. And I don't quite know how I feel about this application cycle.

Anyways, enough of my rambles. Please do this if you can: 

http://change.org/p/electoral-college-electors-electoral-college-make-hillary-clinton-president-on-december-19 

http://peopleforbernie.com/join